october-moon's Diaryland Diary

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Let me forget...

I feel so down today. I want to lay down and sleep the day away.
I hurt. Mentally and physically. I can't get things out of my mind. I can't let things go that I want so badly to let go of. I pray for strength and a way of forgetting.
Just let me forget for one day. Let me forget...
I think I'll be okay. No, I know I'll be okay. I suppose time will make things better. It's only been a year for me. Well, almost a year. God, has it really just been a year? It seems like a life time. And it still hurts so badly. I still feel the sting as if it happened today or yesterday. Everytime I am reminded of it, I literally get the chills. I feel like I've been punched in the stomach.
I need to think of something else.
I'm so behind on school work. I haven't felt like doing anything this week. My "monthly" is draining all my energy. I've been cranky and pissy and not pleasant to be around. But I think of it as a blessing from the Goddess, as a sign that I can bear life.

5:07 p.m. - Friday, Dec. 10, 2004

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